What’s been happening with my process in doing readings?
I’d like to just state that I am by no means a spiritual reader for everyone and far from it. My methods are advancing and changing as i grow and to be honest it is a little scary. Some of you may have noticed that I am changing my services and completely getting rid of other services. . . fear not I love what I do and will continue to offer readings to all that want them.
18 year old me, that’s somewhat 10 years ago now, I was a Tarot reader, a very intuitive reader but I understood the concepts of the cards and associated my own meanings to them - some of which are not what you read in the books of tarot. Nonetheless, some of you may also know that when I was little I would have the ability to see, speak and interact with beings that adults could not see. As I have grown or should I say “growing”, I get impressions, flashes, scenes, images, symbols shown to me, sometimes I hear words, songs, feel things, all of which can be draining on me because it’s figuring out what's real, what's me and what is that in which spirit is telling me.
So what’s going on now?
I have been experiencing a sense of not being present when doing readings for clients, let me explain what I mean “present”. It’s as if I step back and spirit steps forward inside of my mind and my being. This is new to me, well fairly I have had moments where I lose a few seconds here and there but now it’s by far extending to minutes stretching to an hour...
The Issue I am facing is I’ve always remembered clients and all that I spoke about the next day, and even into the next couple of days, and sure I guess you can put it down to the fact I have had more clients and as such my memory is foggy. But I am someone who will remember the smallest of things in my personal life that happened months even years ago… So why am I forgetting things?
It’s been a slow thing, but it has now caught my attention. You see when I channel or let’s say perform a reading It’s as if now, more than ever, that spirit kind of steps in and does it for me. It’s like a meditative trance-like state, difficult to find the words to describe what It is that I mean. And sure I pull cards but it’s completely not fully in my awareness it kind of feels automatic.
I love to be available to answer everyone's questions after a reading but if I am honest the entire reading is now becoming a mystery to me, I do not for the life of me remember what was even said it’s almost like a dream, you know by the time your having breakfast you have a slight knowing of what it was about but by the time you finished breakfast it feels like this far away cannot quite grab it type feeling or concept.
So now it’s taking me 10 times longer to get back to everyone because I have to then exert myself into the same state of which is pulling on my energy. Unless you are a reader yourself I don’t think people can quite comprehend the level of which it takes to connect with your energy… I laugh now because I realise this all sounds “woo-woo” and or “new-agey” but it’s true, I get that it’s not the same exhaustion as someone who works a physically draining job, like building, construction and well, fill in the blank… But it is tiring, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically… I become you, I see through you, I see where it is that you're going the 100’s of possible outcomes of the situation you're in, and how certain choices have led you here… And at the same time, My job is not to tell you how to live, what choices to make, that is up to you, it’s your life, your experience, I simply want to guide you and help you through life.
So spirit speaks to me or through me in different ways depending on the client. Sometimes they are symbolic, sometimes direct, sometimes they word things a way to get you thinking… I’m trying to work a way where I can snap out of it to decode for you, but once I'm in it I find it hard to snap out until it’s done. The universe is speaking to us all, always, it’s up to you to notice these patterns, things and signs it’s there as a way to help you but like most of us, the world is fast paced and we check out because we are so caught up with our to-do lists, physical world and we neglect our inner spiritual selves.
It amazes me how people can relate to my youtube predictions because some of it is so cryptic, symbolic, almost in a way it kind of makes you need to decode the entire thing to get your reading - of which I apologise but maybe that’s why so many people can relate because everyone is interpreting it differently.
I have had people ask why they are so short… and the very reason I keep them short is because it takes a lot out of me if I'm honest… To zone into a large group of people to find the similarities going on with each sign. Not only that there are so many readers now, who has the time to sit and listen to a 30 minute reading for their Sun, Moon and rising sign - that’s like one and half hours zapped… Not that there is anything wrong with that in fact, I like to watch them too.
It’s true all of this fascinates me, it is after all my greatest passion. It’s not what I do It is who I am. I guess a part of me is doubting myself because I don’t remember things said, how can I know, I know at the time doing it that it was very real, and well I guess a part of me also is a tad cautious as to not lose myself in spending too much time in you that I forget myself... To live or experience what I am supposed to in this life (the readings and what not is a part of it) and I love to escape up there … Blah, I’m such a Pisces! haha
I guess the purpose of this post it to keep you guys updated as to where my heads at or not at haha.
You can sample my services for Just £5 (newcomers only) they are guidance readings and not directed at anything other than what spirit wants you to know about. I put 10 up at the start of each month - So please be patient if they sell out.
